Lessons Learned in Forced Feminization, You Decide

Lessons Learned in Forced Feminization, You DecideSo did this title catch your attention. Will you read on?? Ok so I'm not going to tell you I was forced onto hormones, I didn't get huge breast implants or permanent makeup tattooed on my face. I cannot go out in public and pass as a beautiful genetic female. But if you read on I will tell a true story of one of my early experiences with my wife after she caught me secretly crossdressing in her clothes, masturbating hard as a rock ready to cum. (that was my first of many to follow ruined cum). I promised her the world so to speak (my second mistake) not to divorce me as I expected she would if I was ever caught. But after understanding my need to dress , accepting I wasn't "gay" and had never been with anyone but her she aggreed I could continue to dress. But only if I gave myself up to her control and did it her way which out of love for her and my feminine dressing I aggreed. She became my Mistress and our marriage/relationship changed. She began to discipline/teach/train me as her feminized domestic girl in her household using her Behavioral Psychology skills never to be a man again. She also controls my sex so that I am not allowed to masturbate, get hard or "dribble" as it is now called without her permission and usually in her presence in order for us to maintain our marriage.First off understand that she re-trained/conditioned me to no longer function as a man/male nor do my previous male parts function in that way now as a result. All my body parts were changed in name and function to a female role. I was taught and accepted the fact that a Girl like me will never have male sex, a male cock cum, or produce semen/sperm ever again. I have a "Pussy ass" or cunt, and a "Clitty thing" ( cock and balls new name). I also am regularly reminded and own up to the fact that I seriously upset my wife, changed our relationship and sexual life dressing up and playing with my little clitty when she caught me and that this behavior ( masturbation or erections) was an insult to her and would not be tolerated. I then promised to learn and accept as well that a girl like me should not ever have a hard clitty without her permission again to avoid this problem. This was the biggest insult, embarrassment, loss of her repect for me as a man, her husband and how she looks at me. As a result her behavioral psychology skills were used to train me so this no longer occurs for me even with my chastity cage off. I no longer get sexually excited without a good dose of pain happening at the same time. I regularly repeated after her and eventually was convinced and accepted that I am a sterile, impotent girl as a result of her treatments to make my clitty soft and feminine so it no longer has sex. I have even been to my doctor and tried all the pills, injections and natural stuff. He tells me an inflatable implant might return usable function but of course he doesn't know why I have the condition I'm too embarrassed to tell him my story. Next I am allowed when earned and offered by Mistress to ask for ( more accurately beg) for an opportunity to attempt to "dribble" i.e. to leak my girl fluid or juice into my shot glass and drink it for my health and well being. I am only allowed to dribble in a process called "milking". Much like my peeing I have no stream thanks to my 2 ; yes count them , two Prince Albert Piercings. I have to sit and wipe like a proper girl to pee. The setup for these milkings are not intended to be sexual and are much like an a****l being milked. Hooked up, locked in and it does or doesn't happen within a given time frame otherwise move on. It is therefore mechanical in nature, put on display to see the spectacal for her and others to enjoy my humiliation, shame and embarrassment. The process is always associated , paired with pain , bakırköy escort suffering and therefore more often unsuccessful for me. Further removing it from a sexual thing and more an a****listic , gut need and compulsion for me to degrade myself in front of people to such a lowly level to cum.The average person would not see this a sexual thing in any way and might even be offended and repulsed not able to watch. I am bound by ropes and/or chains to be immobilized as much as possible, blindfolded, and usually gaged to eliminate many of the senses. My Pussy Ass must be plugged with an appropriate item such as a big butt plug or preferably a "Girly Toy" such as a big dildo or strap on ( now days real cock) to hump. My clitty thing is tied/bound, stretched twisted in unimaginable unnatural ways to remain soft. I have 16 total piercings in my clitty , and leading between my legs to my pussy ass to attach to and assist in the mechanical process of the hard use , abuse and torture of my clitty. My mistress praises me saying it is reward it deserves this for being a good girl according to her. It is my foreplay leading to a cum I always hope and I am now addicted to it and mistress . Also I usually am not allowed to touch my clitty in any way at least at the final stage that could excite it or in a sexual way to assist with fluid release.So one day early in my feminization training I was ordered to my room for "timeout". I was warned already this would happen for an incident earlier in the day when I insulted/upset "my wife" in her role and my daytime male role as husband/provider by unknowingly/unintentionally "talking down to her". This makes her feel that I am treating her as less intelligent than she is. My room/timeout also means the wooden time out chair and I had better be dressed and sitting by the time she gets to the room. The chair has been out fitted with a big cock to fill my pussy ass to sit on and the chair legs, slats, rungs, bars or whatever you want to call them have added an assortment of hooks and eye bolts to bind me securely in many different ways. All of my training and discipline activities occur in my room and it is filled with all my female clothes, toys, equipment and furniture besides the chair such as the hitching post bolted to the floor that my clitty leash is often attached to for me to stand like a parked horse for long periods of time while many "clitty grooming, exercising, and treatment" things are done to it ( if you get my drift torture renamed from sexual terms like CBT